Emilio Crispo
THE DIARY OF AN ANGEL
UP THERE, IN HEAVEN - WE LIVE!
'To all those who need a little help in order to go on believing, and to those who do not believe, yet need just a tiny bit of doubt to shake off their scepticism.'
‘Were I not alive, this pen wouldn’t move
a millimetre. It would move only to write the inconsequential thoughts that
usually go through one's head, such as pain, nostalgia, despair, resignation.
I am instead full of joy, praise, tranquillity, bliss, certainty. Why do
all these beautiful feelings cause suffering? Because of envy? I have left
this earth, but not you and my friends. God has taken me from my earthly
life, but has given me eternal life. He has not deprived me of your affection,
and I can reach you when and how I like…
… There are very many ways to communicate with those dear to us who
have been taken to a better life. Our way seems to be amongst the most original.
I do not think there have been, or there are, similar experiences, based on
direct connection. This has happened because of the strong bond that exists
between us, and above all because of the affectionate consent of Our Lord who
has made his miracle possible.’ (3rd July
1996)
'UP THERE, IN HEAVEN- WE
LIVE!
It
is this objective that we will pursue with all our energies, and this is the
message to pass to our readers.
...
Knowledge is an invaluable asset, especially
if it leads us to God. But wisdom is an even higher privilege, which is borne
of the humility that allows God to guide us to the truth, of recognising
His sign, His project, in order to witness it and enable anyone to participate
in His greatness. Look around you and outside this always as you read, and
try not to approach this superficially. Follow your own intellect, yet do
so without overlooking the voice of your heart. When in darkness, look for
a shaft of light and it will
be able to lead you back to its source. But above all, ask for the love of
God, through which you will be able to realise the message that is now coming
through me. I hope that something of the joy of this gift will always remain
with you.' (13th September 1998)
CONVERSATION BETWEEN
HEAVEN AND EARTH
‘You have to understand that we cannot
manage without those things that we love, things, people, animals, culture,
art.
Art
is like me, impalpable but alive, and you love it. As you have found me again,
you will again discover that beauty in art which is an expression of the spirit,
and an inspiration to man from God... You know I am not referring to beauty
in art generally, but to that kind of beauty which is in these conversations
from heaven to earth.’ (1st June 1996)
AN
OVERWHELMING EMOTION
I never experienced such an emotion
until I saw God again
Dear Daddy, Do you remember that time, when I was very very little , you and
mummy had left for a congress and when I saw you coming back home, after endless
anxiety, I wet my pants due to the emotion.
What an overwhelming emotion !
In my heart sneaked the fear you had left me
forever, but we were all three together again! For the first time I understood,
how painful it is to feel or to believe oneself abandoned and how reassuring
it is to realize one had been wrong.
I am sure that when we will see each other
again, up here, none of us will ever experience the same emotion
We will certainly hug each other in tremendous joy, but I believe I will not
wet myself as it happened that time and not only because I would not have the
physical structure, but because I know that none of us has practically ever
been separated from one an other. You, through your tender love and ever growing
faith and me because I am actually always near you, I should almost say in
body and flesh!
I never experienced that same emotion all through my life, until the
day I was able to see God again.
I believed He had left for a long journey and
that He would never come back to me and when I saw him close to me and He smiled
upon me in the same way he had when I was about to face the adventure
of life, this upset
me just like that time. I realized, now as on that occasion, that I had never
been abandoned if not in the appearance of a more or less lasting event, because
His Love for me had never faded away, just like yours and mine.
I also
realized that whereas our love for Him, may change, the Love of God is unchangeable
and endless in giving us life before, during and after death in the same way
that your love for me endures and allows me to live in your hearts. Just as
I now live in you, I live in God , and you’ll understand
this when He will appear to you..if I may say, in the flesh and body of His
Son Jesus.
And you’ll discover, not without emotion and astonishment, that what
is considered an abstract and ideal feeling is, instead, a real entity even
if in all Its immensity and eternity, It ‘appears’ in the tenderly
human eyes of the Holy Face of Jesus and in the motherly endearments of Merciful
Mary.
What an emotion, dear daddy, what an emotion dear mummy!
None of them ever abandoned
us!
Jesus even came to look for us, because we had abandoned the Father. I have
no fear to believe and assert that God, just as any loving father, experiences
such an ardent emotion when one of His sons, given up as dispersed, comes back
to Him.
And who knows how many times He does rejoice over the emotion. But
He, certainly without mishap.
I love you just as much as that time.
( 2nd
June 2001)
